7/30/11
I’ve been going through A LOT of changes, and having a lot of dialogue in my head about them all. I feel as though I’ve taken a step towards living the life I want to be living, meant to be living, and I feel like I’ve gotten stuck somehow. Like there’s a part of me that is saying “wait wait waaaiiitttt a minute here! Aren’t you supposed to be feeling lost, tortured and frustrated?” And to that voice I say- fuck off. No. I’m actually NOT supposed to feeling like that. I’m supposed to be doing that which makes me happy and fulfilled. Cock. So, voice in my head, take a mother fucking hike. Shove it. Your services are no longer needed here. And while I made it very appealing for you to hang around, I don’t feel like it anymore. so... buh bye. And don’t let the door hit you on the way out.
For a while there I was meditating more regularly, even if it was for 5 or 10 minutes, then I stopped... again. And, surprise surprise, I started feeling stuck again. I’d rather feel free and purposeful. So, Dear today- feel free to excite me, surprise me, and delight me for I am waiting with open and loving arms for your treasures.
Not a lengthy entry, but an entry none the less.
Peace bitches.
